Prospects for 2014

I'm already beginning to think about next year. I said that last year was the best year of my life but this year has been just as good.... in a very different way. I think last year was more about exploring and having fun and indulging in fantasies about what was to come. This year, was all about learning and accepting who i was and who i'm going to be in the years to come. This year was also a huge learning experience. Being thrust into solo living and learning all about the hardships of money and the work force. I've come to some half conclusions about myself as a writer. I'm going to keep on writing. Getting published is no longer the number one goal. The goal is to sustain writing and to continue making sure that it's an important and practiced feature of my life. It's important to me and for my general living. This is going to continue. I have completely given up my idealistic and naive dreams of being a noted writer in Melbourne. That's not going to happen. There are people who are halfway there already and i haven't even leapt from the starting line yet. Plus, my life is heading towards a new direction that's so opposite to that sort of thing. I just feel it, i know it's going to happen.

I'm thinking about moving apartments at the end of the year if things look favorable towards that position. I have to say, i'm growing very, very attached to where I live now so i don't know how things will pan out at the end of the year. Who knows? I have some suburbs that i want to move to in mind. I'll be looking at apartments still. That's all a girl my age with my income can afford really, and i don't mind it although living in a house is something that i do dream about. I want an art deco apartment and they are pretty easy to come across if you look at the right areas. I have one area in mind that i really like so if there's something truly un-missable at the end of the year that pops up there, i'm going to take it. I love living alone and having an independent lifestyle. I've always known that i'd like it ever since i was really little. I just enjoy having things my way and doing things by myself. I don't like compromising myself when it comes to really important stuff. I don't mind doing things other peoples way but that's only at work in the world. When i'm at home, i don't really want to listen to anyone. This is all of us down to the bones, i feel. Today, is my first day solo at Obus. For some reason, i'm not that scared. This is what's happened. I've become such a calm and relaxed person. I used to be hurried and anxious and shamefully awkward but all that's ebbed away. It feels great to be this chilled out. I've been wanting it for so long! OK, so i really have got to get a move on with my copy writing. It's actually becoming more tedious now. More later.
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