I do write.. oh yeah

I've forgotten the fact that the blogs name is : Yalei Writes. All I've been doing is scanning in stickers, my drawings and random things and not really writing anything at all. I guess the trouble is, is that i've run out of a lot of things to say. I've lost that gusto that i used to have when it comes to having ideas and stuff. Let me tell you something, never get content if you want to stay creative. I mean, i guess i'm still creative a little. I draw, a lot. I read, a lot ( does that even count? ). I still write a lot but it's all personal stuff that i wouldn't show anybody. I used to have lots of things that i wanted to write but these days i feel like all of its just rubbish, really. It's that stuff that everyone thinks is so real and so special and so deep. In reality, everybody has been through the stuff that i'd write up. Why the hell would my experiences be more real or deep or special than anybody elses? I still write about these things but i just wouldn't pitch them to any publications anymore.

A writer is someone who writes. Over the years, i've wondered who a writer is. My old gripe was whether you had to be published regularly in order to call yourself a proper writer. Well, it's been years since my last proper published article and i am doubtful that there's one coming my way anytime soon. It's a difficult game, the artistic one. Only a handful of those truly make it. I don't think i'm one of them. I've been coming to some pretty long awaited conclusions about myself and my life so far, and i'm so thankful that i am where i am headspace wise now. I'm in a really peaceful and content place. I wouldn't trade it in for anything.
I'll continue to write on this blog because it's fun and it's for me. But i don't know if i even really want to pursue being a big shot writer anymore. That flame inside of me with all those ideas, opinions and feelings has been extinguishing itself for a long time now. I think it's more or less gone. Life is so easy to lead when you are calm and when you're not fighting with the world, with yourself, with others. With anything and everything.