Keeping it Casual / I just want you to know

What happens when you really like someone? I mean platonically. When you sense that this person and you would be really good friends. Talking to them is easy, you laugh, you don't have awkward silences. It's just time to be friends. I feel like there's this real sense of privacy when it comes to showing other people that you like them. NOONE wants to be the first one to make a move in case they get burnt. Understandably, none of us want to make a blunder. But i feel like there's something so childish in this kind of restraint. I've always been someone who's been purely honest about their feelings for people. When i like people, i try to let them know because i feel like people want to know. How many times have you guys experienced that thing in life when you find out something and you say back to that person : " You should've told me earlier ". Discretion is something that i hold in a high esteem. But when it comes to something like friendship, when you can really sense that you guys are just supposed to be friends, i hate that we are too scared to make the leap. The problem is tough because the reason why we don't make leaps is so valid. We just don't want to get burnt and we don't want to be the victim of rejection.

The thing about rejection is that it's good medicine. It hurts and tastes bad upon first swallowing, but afterwards, you recover and then become more immune to the grit that is reality. I think me being more open about my feelings to people ( to their face ) has been a recent phenomenon. L'esprit de l'escalier is an experience that strikes us deep after a social situation. It's not a pleasant feeling to sit with, that feeling of regret and endless wandering about what could've been. Friendship is something that i really enjoy, even better when there are new ones to be had. But i just wish that people would somehow find it in themselves to stop being so defensive and indifferent. The thing about being honest with people, is that the more you are with them ( about positive things, but it can be the other way around too ) the more they become addicted to you. Honesty is a privilege these days because it puts that person who's showing it at risk. When i tell people that they are good looking or talented or just great, i'm putting myself at risk because you don't know how that other person is going to feel. Sometimes, it's not a good reaction. They can become uncomfortable, awkward or just plain freaked out by the boldness you are showing. Some where in the back of my mind, i have this feeling that they sort of appreciate it though. When they are alone and everything's quiet, they appreciate you doing that for them.

When you show people a bit of honesty, they want even more. Little by little, people get a bit addicted to what you have to truly say about them. We all want to know what the world really thinks about us. And if the things that the world thinks about us are good and they truly mean it, then yes, tell us right now what you think. We keep things so indifferent by not showing our true feelings or being too scared to pay someone a compliment. I understand why, but i feel like i'm the only person out there who makes the leap in letting other people 'know'.