Easy Street ?

2013 will be one of those years that i look back on say something like, " If only it was like that now, i'd be.... ". I got an eerie feeling in 2013 that that was going to be somewhat of a defining year of my life that i'd look back on in the future.

It was a time when i learnt about domesticity and keeping a 'home'
It was a time when i loved shopping for homewares and sheets because i had a home to use those things in
It was a time when i felt the most ' regular ' and ' stable ' ( THIS WAS BLISS )
It was a time when i'd sit in front of the TV and felt like i deserved it because i had done a 12 hour shift for the whole day

Living at home is OK, but i'm constantly wondering when i'll be out in the world as a solo girl again. I very, very often forget that i'm still very young and there's still heaps of time to get 'things done' and that things will just 'happen' when they feel it's the right time. But i've always had this tenacious obsession about getting things done as soon as possible and cramming as much in before I reach 30. I've learnt ( but am still learning to accept ) that things happen to you not only through hard work, but also from luck and right timing - which are totally beyond your control.

I am both curious, very curious and also hesitant to see what the future holds for me. I feel like my entire life is filled with drama. I've said before that my life was one of those lives that can change in the space of an hour to a day. I know, that sounds so full on but it's totally true. The truth of the matter is, i wouldn't be surprised if i was either a bum underneath a bridge or a rich lady living in Beverley Hills in the next 20 years. It's THAT intense and there's never a middle ground. Sometimes i look at other people and i really wish i could just step into their shoes just to see how they see things through their mind. It's so silly, like that will ever be possible. But it's just one of those dumb things that we fantasize and think about when all is quiet.