" Summertime Sadness "

Another totally daggy title for my entry. It's a Lana Del Rey Song. I really, really love her. I blast her at work all the time. Everyday in fact. But to the point, this entry is about a recent idea that i've had ( which my dad is totally against haha ). Today at work, i got pondering. What if i took 2014 off? Quit all my jobs, moved back home and lived a totally cushy life? I mean, i'm kind of into it. There are these memories that i have of living home that i'm beginning to really miss and crave. My old bedroom with the windows open during the summer nights, the lighting, the tv hung up on the wall in my bedroom, the white desk, the plants outside my window and how quiet it was where my parents lived. I miss my mums big garden and her dozens of plants, fruits and vegetables and the pergola. I want to go back and live in that room and feel a complete 360. I want to return to that old room of mine as the new person that i am now. I really, really want it. I want to live like how i used to live. My dad likes the idea of me moving back home but when i told him about how i'd quit all my jobs he just said, " I'm not supporting you". Damn.

But on the other hand, i want to move to East Melbourne. I've been looking on real estate websites and boy, are there some really nice art deco apartments that i'm eager to settle into. And affordable too. I kind of want to move into a studio apartment second time around. I love the idea of ALL my stuff in one room. This means that i'll throw out heaps more stuff which is fine. I want to live in one room in this one world. I wouldn't even mind if the apartment was small. More and more i'm getting into small rooms. I think there's something so modest about them. Thinking about my life, i forget how young i am all the time. If i want to take a year off from the world, i know that i could. As for the money thing? I really, really want to cut my spending. I think not having work would force me to do that, after all what choice would i have? I love living this life that i'm leading now where i choose and have power over absolutely everything. I get to choose what jobs i want to work in, how i decorate my apartment, what i want to and don't want to eat and what i want to buy. It's the best. I get off on this awesome amount of power and independence that i have. It'll take someone totally platinum card to make me even consider putting anyone else as a priority in my life. I know that sounds really conceited and it is. I've got a dilemma in my hands and it's pretty big one too. Both of them seem great to me. I don't know which one i should choose. Thankfully i have a couple of months to work it out.