The Morning Quiet

More than anything as i grow older, i crave for silence and peace. I know that sounds so old fogey to say but i guess i'm a huge old fogey. It's been of concern to me how much that i've actually aged inside, especially this year. I mean, i turn young again when i'm with my friends and we're all together having fun but when i'm alone, i just want to have peace and quiet. Last night i went back to my parent's house to see them because they've just recently returned from an overseas holiday. I don't really like going back to that area but i love spending time with my parents in their home. The best thing about going back there, is how dead quiet it is almost if not all the time. Living in an apartment means that noise is something that you've just to got to get used to. But i just haven't been able to as much as i wish that i could. My neighbours really drive me insane. I don't know whether they are really bad or just normal. It's just probably because i'm hyper-sensitive to noise.

I really want to start getting up even earlier than the time that i do already because i just love the morning quiet so much. You feel really special or something, being able to take advantage of that time all for yourself. The entire world is still asleep, still unaware yet you are. It's the best time to reflect, ponder and WRITE. At the moment, my body is attuned to rising at 7:40. But i want to take that back to 7 and then eventually to 6. I really cherish that quiet time now that i live amongst these really awful neighbors that are constantly making noise and having sex really loudly. As much as i love the area in which i live at the moment and how close it is to work, i'm seriously considering moving at the end of the year. It's a pretty petty reason to move entirely but i've really discovered how sensitive i am to noise and commotion. I used to shirk at the idea, but i can definitely see myself living in the country when i'm a full fledged adult. In fact, i think that idea is fantastic and it'll definitely be a consideration of mine in the future. Routine has become a really important part of my life. I feel like i've been missing out on such a fantastic installment of daily life for so long up until recently. Doing the same thing every morning solidifies your personality and identity. When i leave for whatever commitments i have during the day, i always feel so ready for whatever the day will throw at me.
I can't believe i used to just get up in the morning and just leave for whatever i had on. It's sort of embarrassing to admit now. I couldn't actually do that these days. I need at least 2 hours to kind of attune myself to the day before i can leave the door. I think if i rose earlier, i'd feel even more centered than i already do.