Kumamon / Japan / Retreating

I've been not on the blogosphere because i've developed this huge, huge obsession with Kumamon and i've literally just been watching videos of him on Youtube and squealing in asian girl delight over him. I know it's really bizarre. Even i'm totally weirded out by how obsessed with him i am. There's something psychological going on here. Here's a picture of him. He's actually the mascot of Kumamoto prefecture in Japan, he's basically an amazingly, cute marketing ploy for all of us to go there. I'm SOLD!!!! I want Kumamon merchandise so badly. I know, i'm such a tool of the companies!!

I love you Kumamon !!!

Literally, what i've been doing is just watching him on Youtube and just basically holding back screams of love. I'm still doing it. Other than that, i've been just obsessing with Japan. I went to Daiso yesterday and was looking for Kumamon stuff but also other cute things. I'm going through the biggest cute phase. But who knows if it's a phase you know? All the things that i've been into have sustained themselves and i don't see them going anywhere. I want to go to Japan so badly.

Other than that, i've made my room at my parents house really cosy and nice for myself. I want to go back there all the time even more because i got this really gorgeous lamp from Ikea ( The only place i ever go to shop for homewares because it's cheap and they always get the designs right. Those swedes know design ). I love being there. It's literally my retreat from the entire world. I finished a painting for my old bedroom on the weekend using oil paints. This is it guys, i've started oil painting finally. I feel i'm ready and i love it. It's so luxurious and opulent and you feel like royalty using it. Not joking.


        

New " Tattoo " tights!

And onto something more serious and a bit exposing ( but not really? ). I've stopped taking my medication because i want to adjust to the real world with my real emotions. Being on Prozac was like a dream. Everyday was amazing, I had so much motivation and energy but deep inside me I was just thinking, " This can't be forever and i'm so sad about this.". I may as well just start real life asap. What this has seen me feel is basically ... introspective, private and wanting to spend every moment alone. Don't get me wrong, i still love hanging out with my friends and having fun with other people but i just am so desperate to be alone all the time. I'm not depressed anymore which is a great sign being not on them and all but i just want to be alone all the time. I also want to post less here and actually only post when i have things to say. :-) It's OK though, i'm not ditching blogs anymore. I've ditched and re-started so many blogs. Time to stop that dumb habit.
xxx