As writers ( wow, i've been calling myself this a lot lately i think i've finally broken the spell ), we sit down A LOT. I've just had lunch and i'd imagine with a stomach this heavy, any normal person would be doing something active to make use of all this energy. But my first priority after eating is work and work is all about sitting down here and writing.
Writers don't move around a lot. They aren't active that much. I mean, it probably depends on the person after all, but i've known writers and none of them really are that active physically. We are always sitting behind our desks and scribbling in our books, listening to the radio and day dreaming about things past and to come.
My lap top is the center of my life. It's where work begins and work ends and it's where work creates itself too.
I feel like a very ' still ' sort of person, you know. I don't really ever do any sport because i hate it and i'm more or less in a constant state of quiet contemplation over my life and the world.Writers think a lot about stuff. So do all creative people and most creative people are 'still' people who sit around a lot. All the work goes on when we are still. All the work happens when we aren't moving. I have so much writing i have to do and i just can't be bothered. I'm such a whinger, all the work i have to do is related to my ideas and my thoughts and i'm writing about what i want to write about and yet, all i really want to do is watch movies on my laptop and maybe advance a bit further into my novel.
Next year, is going to be weird. It's going to be weird because i don't know what the hell is going to happen to my life. I naively thought that i'd have a proper job before December and i just DON'T think that's gonna happen. What that means is not a secure source of money which means i can basically kiss my new apartment idea good bye. But i've been basically living here at my Parents place and i actually like it. There are days where i hate it because it's so far away, but then most days, this is the part that i actually appreciate the most. I like that ' journey ' feeling into the city and i like how peaceful it is and how you can always hear the birds.It's really weird when i go back to my apartment because it's such a nothing place for me now. It used to be my home, a space brimming with my life and my things and my energy but now, it's just an apartment with my things. It's just a storage unit actually. It makes me sad a little, because it's all to do with me and how i am just too sensitive to sound. I'm also very particular about the people who live around me and how much noise they make. Apartments are a luck of a draw thing. I think most people strike it lucky, this time i didn't though unfortunately.
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Thanks so much for reading!