Career Girl

I have a job interview tomorrow and i'm so eager to snag this job. I have to admit, i think i am competitive. Or, i've grown to be competitive in the last couple of years because i'm finding that i get more disappointed and more down on myself when i lose opportunities or get rejected from things.
I really want this job. We all want the jobs we apply for, but you know that feeling when you know that this one job is going to sort of change your life? The thing is, i feel like i'm never going to succeed as a writer. I feel like noones ever gonna care about my writing. People who work and get paid for what they do as an artist are the luckiest people ever. This isn't work, this is basically the entire world loving you, praising you and seeing things in your work that you even don't see and taking you places without you even having to do anything. I know there's hard work involved even in solo projects that are made by you and from you but if you ask me, if someones paying or interested in my work, i'd literally work for free for them. But having recognition in ones own work just never happens. For those few who have that happen to them, they are truly some of the most privileged people. That's just not in the cards for me, though. I'll always write but i think where my strengths actually lie is in the business world. Working for companies and being a corpo person. I never ever thought i'd feel this way but i totally do ( the fact that i never thought i'd be this way just confirms to me that it's true because in life we always end up doing the opposite of what we thought we'd be doing, 100% serious ).

If i don't get this job, i'll be really disappointed. In the last six months, i've become super business minded and all i want to do is earn a heap of money and work for companies to create revenue and develop interesting and creative ideas that make people think " That's so weird but amazing, who the hell thought of that? ". I don't even have the job yet and i'm already looking at all these great properties that i could totally afford to live in if i had this job. The more you earn, the wider your world becomes. This job interview is for a dead-set REAL job. I'm never working for retail again. I hate it so much. I hate everything about the retail industry. The only good thing about retail is shopping there and being served by the people who work there. End of story. I want to be behind the scenes of companies where we pump out effective and powerful writing and content that represents the company. I want it so badly! I feel really confident for the interview and not nervous at all because i know exactly what i want to say and i have no intentions of doing or being anything but myself. The truth is the most powerful thing. I want to work and i want to work hard for any company prepared to offer me a role in my field which is writing. Moreover, if creativity is a component of the job then i'm doubly interested.

I feel like the most successful people in life are just truth tellers and tell the truth either about themselves or about the world and they succeed because the truth is so powerful. When i look at all the people that i look up to, they tell the truth. I never get sick of looking up to the people i look up to. I literally adore them. I know that sounds really psycho but i believe in worshipping your influences. I love powerful, successful and driven people who are motivated and all about propagating their ideas and power. They don't have to be loud or in your face, they just have to be totally motivated, driven and with it. I love these people and i want to be every inch like them.