Gettin' Motivated

As recent as a couple of weeks ago, i was literally like this : 

 

But, i guess when things hit rock bottom, they have nowhere else to head besides up again. When you feel motivated and energetic, things seriously come to you. Things HAPPEN, do you know what i mean? Even seemingly stupid or pointless things are significant and contribute positively to your life. Listen to me, I'm totally sounding like one of those fraudulent motivational speakers! I've been reading heaps of how-to books. It's been a break from my usual choices of literature and fiction. I've been taking advantage of the library which has been the best thing i've done. More of us should utilize this rich resource. I feel like what most of these motivational books are missing out on saying though, is that you need something good to happen in order for you to feel motivated and eager to get things happening in your life. I recall when i used to be really sad and depressed years back. If i had read these books back then, I would've felt angry because the writing just shows that they didn't get it. When you feel tired, fatigued and un-motivated, NOTHING and i mean NOTHING can get you out of that rut. Something good has to happen first and then you start to snowball into better and better things. What frustrates me sometimes is when i see famous people on TV say things like, " You have to just get up there and do it". I agree but it's frustrating because when you're winning in life, when you're getting all that you want, when people are loving you of course it's easy to be positive. Try and be positive from the ground. Life is all about finding an entrance point and building momentum until you reach the top.

It's like weight loss. Once you lose a bit of weight, holy hell you get super motivated and are so keen to make even greater things happen. This is what motivation is like. This is how motivation works. Of course, how are things going to work out for you if you don't at least try a little? So far as a writer, i feel like i haven't been attaining the sort of successes that i truly want. It really de-motivated me and i literally said to myself, " What's the point when all i'll get is rejection? ". I know that there's still so much rejection ahead of me, but somehow i feel more positive about it. I feel positive in the fact that there's worthiness in simply disciplining myself to do things and to write and to send stuff out even though the outcome is probably not that great. I wish i could help others in a way to see things in perspective about motivation and success and getting ahead in their craft. I'm by no means successful in my eyes, but i think i am really tenacious and assertive with what i want and i remain focused and determined in trying to get to where i want to get. There's lots of credit in simply sustaining what you like doing even if you don't get to where you want to get. If you keep doing it because it means something to you, then we should see that as another type of winning. But of course, nothing could ever substitute the 'stuff' of what some of us truly want. For me, it's definitely success, recognition and for my writing to be read, heard and taken in. I want it to truly affect people and for it to matter somewhere. It mightn't ever happen, but i'm so determined for it to take me places in the future. But success isn't something that is entirely up to you. It's mostly up to the world to decide if you are worthy. Irrationally, i have this ingrained belief that the more one wants something the further that it recedes into the background. This isn't based on anything real, but i feel like i only ever get what i want, when i stop wanting it.