Yalei Wang

No lies or promises

First of all, i know this is what you guys wanna see. 

Secondly, i have to show you these pair of pink pants i bought from Coles today :

They look really, really bright in that photo ( and i guess they sort of are but they are NOT neon ) and i really love them. So, why have i been absent? Not that anyone would really care but i've literally been depressed and at one point nearly had to be sent to rehab. I had no idea that there were rehabs for depressed people? I thought they were for like drug addicts and alcoholics but apparently not.
I'm so not sure how to even breach this topic without sounding like those internet emos. I've always had so many feelings and i could sort of tell that these feelings that i had were building up towards something really big. My tarot cards for this year were really, really bad. I'm not superstitious much but it's eerie. The things that tarot cards predict always seems to come true for me every time. During the end of last year when i did the spread, i literally felt scared because i got the tower card. Forget the death card, you DO NOT want to get the tower card. Look it up, it's freaky as shit. I hit this low point this year and i was like, Goddamit what are the gods saying to me? It's so frustrating to lie in bed not knowing why you are so sad. There are some reasons which greatly contributed to this awful time ( which im not sure is quite over yet)

The main thing is, i have to find a new way of defining what life is.
I've got to start all over again. And i'm the first person to be cynical of this new age Dalai Lama stuff but i think i might give it a chance. I am not ' finding ' myself though, because i know exactly who i am but i need to find out what life means to me personally. It's gonna take ages and i'm getting tired of my life being so dramatic. `In 2013 i thought that the drama of my life was coming to an end but then i became devo. I felt like this useless tool in the shed that had to be thrown out. These past few days have been better because of getting my laptop back and also ashamedly, my new Chanel bag which my mum bought for me as a ' feel better ' gift. HAHA, it worked.

I have to just keep going, i hit a massive low but i think i'm back. Slowly, inch by inch.