Don't go back to Uni

There are many good reasons for going back to study, but to put off reality isn't one of them. I'm not trying to sound mean but it's true, reality is a bitch and it IS a lot easier to hide in the walls of university than to delay your face to face match with the real world. For me, i've always wanted to leave university. I was a good student and got good grades ( Cliche ) but i knew that the real world was where it's at. Even if you aren't doing so hot in the real world, i promise that when you do it'll mean so much more than getting a high distinction.

Right now, i'm not doing so crash hot. The upsides is that my sleeping pattern is back to that of a normal persons, my sleep quality is great, i'm not drinking and i've been very proactive at work and my writing. The downsides are ( as many of you know ) i can't find full time work, i live with my parents, I wake up and my eyes seem to look weird and half awake all the time, I find hair everywhere and i haven't seen my best friend in about two months. Overcoming all this shit will mean that i'll be more resilient and less sensitive in the future. I am by nature a sensitive person but i feel like living has sort of beat that part out of me. It's true that in order to be someone in the creative arts,  you need a certain degree of that but i had way too much of it. Crying in the real world about the real world or celebrating the real world in the real world is like paving new roads in the real world.

I don't believe that being in uni is the real world. Employers don't give you feedback all the time, they don't give you grades, they don't email you back when you have questions about stuff. Same with people in the real world not bound by university rules and laws. Unless you become a professor, you can't stay in university forever. I think the fact that we are offered so much freedom is a source of fear for most people. I feel like we should harness it and see it as a window of opportunity to fill in the gaps of our past.

When we try to make shit happen for us, that's when we learn stuff that matters. I've learnt a lot since leaving university, most lessons which are hard to accept but it brings me to this new mind-set where nothing can really topple me over. I was toppled over a lot in my teens as we all were. I'm so glad that i'm out of that time now. I can only grow more in the future.