You never know what other people's secret projects are

I wish people would be more open about what projects and ideas that were spurring in their mind. No one wants to open up about them in case they don't succeed. I've never been the one to hide my ideas or projects. It's no secret that a lot of them have dwindled and died. I've been disappointed every time and still wonder when i'm going to hit that one idea or project that's going to take me somewhere. My current major project is my book, Life Insurance. I was supposed to send it off last week but i just didn't feel comfortable with the quality of my work. So i've been polishing it up, cutting edges off and perfecting it. A part of me so badly just wants to send it out into the world but another part of me knows that i've got to start editing better and paying more attention to detail. I have this drive to just send things out into the world. I often believe that if an editor likes your work enough, they won't really care that much about the quality because they love it enough to fix it up for you. But that's such a long shot and I want the editors to do as little work as possible. One because i like my work to stand the way it is and two because I just want to seem like a competent writer.

Sometimes i look at people and wonder what they are secretly working on. What they dream about for their own futures and what they fantasize about in private in terms of how they want their lives to go. It doesn't have to be a 'project' per se. It can be a decision they want to make but are a bit unsure about, it can be something that they're working on and is about to take off, it can be a career change. The point is, is that everything is happening right now but we are just totally oblivious to it. We can only ever focus our attention to one thing at a time and understandably, that's ourselves most of the time. I forget that other people are living these lives that are so.. well... ALIVE and they like me, are in a state of rapid flux.