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I don't know why i thought i could just jump back into Tokyo as if those last three months were enough to get me started. I feel like it's my first time here again but that makes sense because i was only here for 1 month last time and that's really nothing. It's so clear that there is an entire world to learn. There's so much to get acquainted with. Not only the language as that is the key to basically everything but also the nuances that nobody can teach you and that you have to feel for yourself. I feel like i have an overarching goal now besides getting Life Insurance published. It's to really assimilate and acclimate myself here properly. I know that that will come with time and i'm excited about that but there's also a lot of risks i'm going to have to take in order to learn. I was a bit anxious all day today and i'm sleeping tonight without a pillow or doona because no stores around here sold either. On top of that, going to the check out is scary because if they do decided to ask me something, i just freeze. I really need to get more confident in using the Japanese i do know because communication is key to everything.
I couldn't help but be weirded out all day because i can't believe that i'm actually here now. Thousands of miles away from Melbourne. Although it is only a one hour time difference, i feel like i've truly left my old soul behind. No more bitching and whining, there's a whole world to be had here. Tomorrow, i'm going to get up three hours earlier and have a productive day of going out and getting the essentials. Nobody told me that actually settling in domestically takes a while. Like i know it. I still need so many things and because i don't have a car, it'll take days to get all the things i need. On top of that, the cashier anxiety holds me back as well. Today i met my roommate and we ate cake together in the kitchen with black coffee. She wants to learn English and i'm eager to improve my Japanese so i feel relieved that i can help someone out whilst they help me out too. The weather is muggy and humid. I feel like i'm walking into a sauna every time i go out. I know i'm changing and that my life is changing. I'm just excited to see exactly how it's going to change in the coming months.
Weeaboo: Someone who is obsessed with Japan / Japanese Culture etc. and attempts to act as if they were Japanese even though they're far from it. Rejects their own heritage and wishes they were Japanese according to their over-idealized daydream of Japanese culture. Puts everything Japanese on a pedestal and thinks they are an expert on Japan. Believe they are Japanese "deep down" and that they should've been "born" Japanese.This obsession with Japan corresponds with general patterns in their life of inferiority, inadequacy, insecurity, lack of self-image and a complete loss of touch with reality.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, i don't reject being Chinese at all. In fact, it's something i want to delve into and explore alongside my fondness for Japanese culture. I don't reject or deny being Chinese at all. Yes, maybe i have aspects of being a weaboo in me, but living in Japan isn't about trying to be Japanese. It's about exploring this culture and country that i've liked for ages. Also, i do NOT proclaim to be an expert in everything Japanese. That's ridiculous.
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Hmm. Your response is well-articulated and, despite unlikable variables, understandable. As a Japanese I'm hardly empathetic towards weaboos or any perspective which worships Japanese culture beyond what is relevant to its indigenous people thus harmful to the authentic Japanese identity, but your rebuttal has sincerity. I'll give you that.
ReplyDeleteIts a shame you've misconstrued her feelings towards Japan and twisted it into something so negatiVe. No one can deny their roots and their heritage but people can and do travel to new countries, enjoy and even adopt the way of the life of the locals there. Your national identity is not going to be affected by her or any other foreigner who comes into your country. So stop being xenophobic and relax.
ReplyDeletedon't tell me how to react to the appropriation of my culture - whether the author did so intentionally or otherwise. something in your dismissive lecturing attitude tells me you are white ^__^ the author kindly expanded upon her sentiments and i've reconciled my thoughts with her well-articulated explanation. your comment was totally unnecessary. thanks !
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