It's different this time..

Lol, this is what i say every time, right? It's DIFFERENT this time, it's different! But this is the LAST time i'm going to say it because even i'm sick of saying it again and again. 2015 ended and what a year. I've been going through some massive mental changes, changes with how i think, feel, perceive everything in my life and writing of course, comes under the umbrella of change. Basically, it's all about writing now. It's not about views or who's reading it or comments. If you live for that sort of thing, you'll end up angry and resentful. A writer needs readers to live which is something that i said last year and still mean. But a writer above all needs to write no matter what happens and this is what i stand by this year and this is why i've made a return to my blog. 

I've also joined a new initiative to do with blogging that one of the publications i'm involved with has set up and that's what motivated me to come back and make something with this blog once again. It's time to get it up and running. Japan has been...... incredible. It was incredible the first time around and time and time again, it just keeps on offering me new things, surprising me with its gifts and blessings. Unlike Melbourne where bad things simply happened and that was it, anything that is negative that happens here turns out to be some sort of insight or gift in disguise. I learn from the hardships here, i grow from the difficulties i face in Tokyo and it just binds my heart to this place more and more. I can't fully express my gratitude to this city and country. I know that i want to make a future for myself here for the rest of my life and i'm going to do absolutely everything i can to make that a reality.

As time goes on, things settle and that's what's happened for me here. I moved here in September last year relieved yet anxious about what to expect. I fled Melbourne without looking back and i haven't regretted my decision once. Work, home life and just life in general is settling into a pattern. Not enough to be labeled as stagnant but it's definitely becoming more routine. I don't mind that because my days off rejuvenate me as there are still so many things i must see and do in Tokyo. It really feels like a place that i'll never stop learning and exploring in. It feels as if with every new discovery here, there are three more that are still out there to be uncovered. The things about me that have changed could fill a book ( and i'm going to put them into Life Insurance, the book i am still writing and looking for a publisher for ). I'll also divulge them here slowly and delicately and intricately because i feel like they are worth writing about since they have really, really changed my entire way of living life.
But for now? I'm back and this time it's based on a foundation of solidity. Whereas before i made bold claims of being dedicated and focused, this time it's not for the purpose of getting readers and attention. You can't force people to care about you, but you can use the skill and passion you have and WRITE, which i am going to do.