One of my BIGGEST Pet peeves

It's mandatory in almost everything we do in life to be presented with situations where we must be judged that we can't get out of. In particular, work situations where it almost feels like the entire situation was set up to make you feel like shit about yourself ( even if it it isn't the case ).
For me, there really is nothing that terrifies me more than having to answer questions in front of other people. It's just a situation that i completely try to avoid because I hate that feeling of pressure and judgement that is so thick in the air. Even if the answer is blindingly obvious, the pressure that hangs around you automatically means you slip up and say something stupid. I had a situation like this yesterday. Lately i've been feeling really positive and energetic about myself and my life but all of that came crashing down after my work training session.

I feel like in group settings, there are always people who dominate the room. They are the most confident and therefore most outspoken and even if they do make mistakes they don't process it in the way as a damage to their ego or self-esteem. In a way, their answers whether they be correct or incorrect are simply answers and not some declaration of anything deeper than that. For me, when i answer questions in front of other people, where judgement happens silently but ubiquitously, what i say is pretty closely tied to my need to be appeased. If i 'm wrong, i feel ashamed. It's as simple as that. If it's in a smaller group, i don't feel as ashamed but life tends to always throw us into situations where we have to prove ourselves in front of the whole fucking world. Being wrong is fine just not when there are four or five other people in the room. By nature, i am a pretty sensitive person but this sort of thing is something i've always felt exceptionally challenged by.

Certifiers and managers have a role to fulfill and one of their duties is to make sure that every member of their team is understanding the material being covered which means they randomly put people on the spot by asking them questions. I mean, i get that and everything but i hope they don't read into it too deeply with me. I can't openly state my thoughts and ideas in a group of people when there's a right answer that we all have to know. Being in these certification sessions makes me realize just how lateral my thinking is. It's all over the place. Sometimes i am so embarrassed when they ask me a question and my answer is SO off even i wonder how i ended up getting there. It makes me feel really ostracized and stupid. But there's nobody to blame in this sort of situation but myself.