Yalei Wang

I feel a bit lost as to where to begin this entry. I don't know who i'm writing to and although that's never been a problem, right now it's getting to me.
Not that i'd alter my writing on my own blog for people. That's only something that i do when it's to do with work. Ok, so enough of this blabbering what's been really going on. 
All i can think about now is getting a real job. A real job with a real contract and real hours that never budge and a steady income. Only then, can i begin my life as a true adult. Whereas i feel like one now and have more adult ambitions and desires for my life than a lot of the people around me, i know that the world still see's me as a 23 year old. And that's got to change. I feel like all i want to do is to run things and to work hard at a company that values me. I want to be able to say to my boss " I'm going to make you look really good and make you a buttload of money ". I want to go to a work place full of energy and motivation and i know that's in me but it's just i need somewhere to prove it to. 

I'm sick of the impetuousity and the instability of youth. In fact, i've come to dislike basically everything to do with being young. I don't like parties, i don't like hang overs, i don't like how one days this and the next days that, i don't like how all young people never have any money or rely on the government, i don't like how they make makeshift furniture with milk crates. I feel like day to day, i relate less and less to the young people around me because i truly wonder if any of them ever want to go places. Maybe they do but they just don't let on, i hope so. I wonder where all the other ambitious young people are in the world. I feel like i only know such a small few. I wonder where ambition is in general. I feel like people around us just put down people with ambition and i really, really hate that. 

There seems to be a resentment against people like me who are ' selling out '. I literally feel like they are deluded. There's no way you can make it out there in the world without selling just a bit out. What is the problem with commercialism and Creativity? Nothing. You want to work in a sector that you love? Then you've got to see it in the eyes of the consumer. Not your peers who have their miserly values that only serve to isolate them from the real world. I want to make money from writing. The good news? There are surprisingly a lot of jobs out there to do with my field. The bad news? I don't know who my competition are. 
In other news, i've just been taken on board by Lip Magazine to be a regular contributor to the news and feature article section of the website. I'm excited about this because finally i'll be published on a weekly basis. I don't even feel weird about it being online and not in their print magazine because it's finally dawned on me that digital print is seriously taking over. We'll always have printed magazines but the truth of the matter is, is that people can access reading material much easier and faster online. My writing is getting to anyone with a laptop as opposed to anyone who has the energy and money to seek out a newsagent that actually stocks the magazine. I'll post the link to my first published article which should be out by next week. Until then.