GLITTER + FAME + WOMAN = TRAGEDY

I have this massive obsession with really dominating, powerful and glamorous women. I guess a part of me wants to be one, i guess a part of every girl wants to be something like that. I've always admired and revered after women who take after the spotlight and take control. I never feel threatened by them at all, i simply adore them. They mightn't always be the best role models but who cares. Good role models are never interesting and nobody ever aspires to be them either. It's the really outrageous and supernova-like women that people love. I just watched a really trashy ( but awesome ) biopic about Anna Nicole made by that Lifetime channel or something and i have to say i loved every minute of it. I have my reservations about her parenting skills but that's totally beside the point of this entry. Wow, i mean when i watched that a whole host of other women came into my mind and i thought, these were the women i truly admired. The ones that always capture peoples attention, the ones that make you love them and never love you back, the ones that truly know how to frame and decorate themselves and that just make you want to look and look and look at them all day long. 

Anna Nicole isn't to my taste, but when i watched that movie, i kind of thought " You know what, you're not the most elegant, tasteful or savory person but you're literally a supernova. You have my attention, my interest and my eyes on your every move ". Something inside of me stirred. We have all these judgements about people who make their way out of where they are and to the top, but at the end of the day they're living their dream and you're beneath them on the ground just judging them. I feel like as a society, we are twice as harsh on women as we are on men. I really do and it's totally not fair. After watching that movie, i thought about other women that i really loved and they've all had questionable lives where they weren't the best role model or the most wholesome. I never want to be a saint and i have never had much interest in them either. 

You don't have to be a sinner to be interesting though, you've just got to do what you want to do and to not be afraid. Just don't be afraid.