The Ultimate Point

Why do you do the things that you do?

No, Actually - why do you keep doing things that you do even though there's no guarantee that it'll take you anywhere?

That's the question of my life and it's recently become something that i can't seem to get over. Lots of people everywhere have different goals and aspirations. They all want their goals and aspirations to come true. But there are only two things certain in life. Death and Taxes ( One of my favorite quotes, you just can't beat the truth of it! ). So what makes some of us so resilient in sustaining our output? I look at my life now and know fully that i won't get what i want most. No matter how much hard work or effort you put into making things happen, the ultimate reality is that fate is the only benefactor deciding whether you get something or not.

Whether it's in the media or real life that i am introduced to people who have un-bridled energy and motivation in their goals, i wonder if things would be the same case if they weren't already experiencing some sort of validation and success. In order for us to be able to keep doing what we want to do, it's essential that we are already receiving some sort of reward from it. But my problem is, i don't like working for things that have no guarantees. I don't like putting my all in things when there is no guarantee that there'll be anything  back. But this is just the worst thing. Because if you do nothing, then it's absolutely guaranteed that you will get nothing back.
I mean fuck, life is a fucking catch-22 and no wonder we as a nation are getting more bloody depressed than ever.
Do nothing, get nothing.
Do something, get nothing most likely too.

I'm trying to re-build my psychological structure because i feel like it is somewhat splintered. I never ever thought about life like this before. I have never seen it in such a damning way. I've never seen it in this way where we can give so much and receive so little in return ALL THE TIME. There has to be joy in simply 'doing' and not receiving anything back at all. I think that's the ultimate way to live. To be able to enjoy the process rather than the rewards that come with it. People who live in that sort of framework are winners.

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