Yalei Wang

Believe it or not, i feel really happy today. Sure as hell doesn't look it though. I have my assessment for rehab on Sunday. I'm actually really excited to go because i wanna see what it's like. I want to see if its like on TV and i want to be taken care of in a 'medical' way. The public health system is so shitty. You have to be on waiting lists for everything and they make you wait for ages. I am not angry or bitter though. Like i'm just glad i wasn't on a super long waiting list. If i get taken in, i'll be there for 2 weeks so i'll be absent from writing here. It's so weird though because i feel like life is picking up again and just as it's getting better and i'm writing again, i get accepted into rehab!! There's this whole thing about rehab being like ' cool ' or ' glam ' that's out in the real world, but i think that's actually such a farce. The lows people have gone through in order to be sent to those places is so fucked. I really hope it's gonna be stereotypical there. Like we have to sit in circles and do therapy together or we get to do finger painting or something. I have a good feeling about the end of the rehab though. It only goes for 2 weeks. When i leave, i feel like i'll be more rejuvenated and motivated to actually.... live. I'll have life insurance. That's the little PDF book that i'm currently writing. Here's the cover :

but you'll have to wait till i finish it to read it. I hope people will actually download it. I think i might send it around to some publishing houses just to see what kind of feedback i get. I love doing things like that, i HAVE to do things like that. I also feel like i've never properly shown you guys the room that i live in. Whenever i take photos, it's always just a blank wall and Totoro in the background.