Who am I ?

I've decided to give up holding an ' impression ' or an 'image' of myself. To be frank, i've gotten so many different accounts of what i'm like that i don't even know who i am anymore. I know that we're all a different version of someone to everyone we know. But when there's about a dozen or more versions of yourself that get told to you everyday, your mind starts to go haywire.
For one, don't you find it confusing that one person says something about you but then someone else will say something else that's the complete opposite? For me, i have a real issue with finding a balance. I feel like both my arms are being pulled at the same time. I want to just 'be'. I don't want to go into the world thinking that i'm a certain way which means that i must get certain things. Because when we don't get something we think that we deserve, it hurts.

All the things that I think about myself have been smashed, re-pieced together then smashed again. It's not sad or anything, just really confusing. I wish that the feedback that i receive from the world would be more consistent. The fact that one person can think you're quiet but then another says you're the loudest person ever is so confusing. Who am i to believe? Who is more reasonable?
Sorry about the weird nature of this entry, but it genuinely bothers me that i can't find some middle ground as to how to view myself. It's a recent phenomenon and it's like a thorn overgrown by skin.

Who trusts what other peoples opinions of us more than their own? I've grown up with my dad telling me that what other people think of us, matters more than what we think of ourselves. After all, it's the outside world that employs us, reviews our books, asks us out to a movie etc.
For a while i agreed. But then in my then phase of self-awareness and self-love, i rejected this notion and embraced how i felt about myself as being more important than the worlds perception of me. Of course, now i am neither. I don't know which one is 'right' or more 'trustworthy'. This literally feels like something a teenager should be going through. Not a 24 year old. But here i am going through this, well and truly.